Flutter of..

Bumili ng milk tea sa Gongcha.
Habang naglalakad, nakaramdam ng gutom.
Napagdesisyunang kumain sa Jollibee.
Nag-order ng may inumin.
Naisipang tanggihan ang kasamang softdrinks.
Pero wala pang sampu ang matitipid.
Hinayaan na lang kahit may inumin pang milk tea.

Habang naglalakad sa tulay, nakakita ng tindahan.
Bumili ng 2 pirasong tinapay.
Ibibigay kasama ang softdrinks sa nadaang mag-ama.
Napansing natutulog at nahiya.
Iniwan na lang ang isang tinapay at nagmadaling naglakad.
Nahihiyang baka magising at makaistorbo.
Umasang may makikitang iba pagbaba ng tulay.
Wala.
Sumakay ng pampasaherong bus.

Huminto ang bus malapit sa Ayala.
May gustong sumakay na tindero.
Matanda na.
Pagod.
May dalang isang balde ng mani.
Hindi pinapasok.
May isa pang tindero na sumubok.
May dalang inumin at fish cracker.
Binuksan ang pintuan.
Tinawag ng tindero ang nagtitinda ng mani.
Pwede na rin siya pumasok kasama ng nagtitinda ng inumin.
Nagdamdam ata.
Hindi na sumunod.

Bumaba ng bus.
Hinanda ang inumin at tinapay.
Tumitingin ng mapagbibigyan.
May nakitang bata ngunit malayo.
Sa isang kanto, may nakita ulit.
Mga batang basurero.
Natakot at baka dumugin.
Pang-isang taong meryenda lang ang mabibigay.
Umasa.
Nabigo.
Umuwing inabot na lang ang inumin.
Tinago ang tinapay.
Umaasang may mapagbibigyan sa susunod.
O panawid gutom pag nangangailangan.




Makita mong may mga taong mababait pa rin.
Malaman mong may taong may nais pa ring makatulong.
Gusto mong kumilos din.
Gusto mong tumulong din.

You did not just do good.
You inspired, people, too.

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Effective July 1

Oh yeah! Finally, I can say it out loud. Finally, it's official! Soon it'll be Facebook official although I'm still thinking if I need to change it. But hey, that's the best way to change status, right? It's like shouting to the whole world even to those who don't really matter to you.

I feel so proud of myself coz I did work hard for it. I was even tasked to do a case study as part of the interview process and I aced it! So yeah, no office politics involved. Haha

I really want to thank my patron saint, Saint Jude, for an additional guidance aside from Him. My lola and my mom for offering a mass for me. My previous director, Ms Anna Mae for explaining more about challenges at work. For my previous program manager, someone that I'll always look up to, Mother Krissy, for giving me tips on my interview. My previous operations manager, Boss Macoi, for being available and eager to call me or take my call when I have questions. My now program manager, Boss Anjo, for inspiring me to become better. My now boss or supervisor, Alex, who provided me with numbers and has always been there as I fulfill the role even without the title yet. Andrei for being competitive for the position. Congrats saten dude! ;)

Also, Team Hornets, Team Robust and Team Canucks. You are all a part of me. I became the best coach for 2013 with all of your help. You guys honed me and made me want to become the best. Now, Team Canada, I'm ready to support you more as you all will be under my wings. Let's continue being amazing team! Communication and collaboration goes a long way! :)

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Parang ayoko na yata?

Haaaay. I never thought this will be this stressful. As in.

Calibration calls. Huddles. On call.
Managers. Director. Global. Clients.
Deck. Business review. Touchbase.

Haaaaaay! I just want to feel normal again.

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Patanggal naman o!

Gusto ko sumigaw.
Gusto ko tumalon.
Gusto ko tumakbo.
Anggang maubos siya.

Matulog.
Maglunch.
Umuwi.
At kalimutan siya.

Ipasa na.
Tayo na.
Lakad na.
Para matapos na!

Haaaaay.
Patanggal naman ng kaba o.
Paiwan muna sa'yo.
Balikan ko mamaya. Pwede?

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Am I?

I am ready.

Yes, I am.

I am..

Am I?

*sigh*

I just finished Mass today at St. Jude, my patron saint. I missed him since I fail to attend the usual Thursday novena because of... *insert excuse here*. So I made sure to come as early as now to attend mass here.



I still have the feels whenever I go here. I feel weak and strong at the same time. I feel weak coz I know I'm called and I don't deserve Him most of the time. But I feel strong, too, coz I know I'm accepted and I know He'll guide me. Tandem pa sila ni patron saint ko. :)

Right timing coz my interview's coming up this Tuesday. I asked for guidance and to help me all through out. I know I can do better. I know I'll be better. I know I can do more if I got it.

While praying, I just kept on asking for his guidance. Just like when I was applying for my position now, I asked for his and His guidance. The first time, I know I was not fully ready with all the responsibity that's waiting for me. I even cried after the interview knowing I won't bag the position but I learned to accept it as a learning experience. On the second time that I applied, I know I'm ready and I'm glad He guided me and never faltered to be on my side all throughout.

This time, I'm scared but I think I'm ready. When I was offering my prayers awhile ago, that's the time I felt that I'm ready. This is for me. Sabi nga nila, "Claim it!"

At times I feel boastful while thinking all these but I know I can do better. I can influence more. I can help more. Although I'm doing things beyond my scope already and can still do things even without the position that I'm aiming more, the things I can do more... *sigh*

If ever I won't bag the position, at least I tried. I know God has a plan... always.

But for now, I will remain positive. This is it!

I am ready.

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Friends or boyfriend?

I feel guilty at times whenever I enjoy being with my friends when I'm with my boyfriend. It looks like I enjoyed it more with them than the other way around. Is it that bad?

Years ago, I learned from a friend, Lhouie, that you should always take time to whoever asks you first. If your friends asked you on a date and you agreed on it, you can't just cancel it just because your boyfriend asked you afterwards. It should be like a first come first serve basis kind of thing. You don't give up on your friends because of the love of your life.

But just the same, your friends should respect your time with your boyfriend. They shouldn't be jealous of him because you have a different kind of relationship.

Although sometimes, like yesterday, I feel guilty. My friends and I already scheduled going to S&R to eat out aside from registering to be a member. I asked my boyfriend to come with us since I want him to have the same experience and my friends won't mind. So after work, we went there and enjoyed food, laughing and sharing stories.

Rai and I was supposed to watch a movie but because we're stuffed with food, we were sleepy. He was also considering my shift at night so he did not push me in watching a movie. So we went home and I fell asleep.

I woke up then receiving a message from him that I was not able to comfort him about his problems at work. I totally forgot about it since I've been thinking that he's already okay since he'll go back to work already the next day. So right there and then, I felt really bad for him and myself.

Now I'm thinking, was it wrong to enjoy myself with the company of my friends even though I'm with my boyfriend? Or I just assummed everything was fine with my boyfriend? Am I just scared to be labelled as someone who's heads over heels with him when I'm in front of my friends? Or my love for him should be questioned already?

Oh, well...

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Push mo yan!

I received a message yesterday that I cannot share to anybody but some already have an idea.

After knowing the 'news', the 'plan' was made concrete.

I don't know. I wanna try it but I'm scared to fail. Isn't such a coward thing to do?

1. What if you know you can but you don't know if you're good enough? It's like you know how to dance but you don't know if it's worth to try in joining a contest?

2. You love what you do but... what can I say? It's like deciding if you can evolve your hobby into a job or sort of an income.

3. I always say that as long as we're single, grab every opportunity since you can still say yes and you don't have much of a responsibility. Going home late? Not a problem. No need to think of your husband/kid that need more of your time.

4. Are you ready? Then again... there's no such thing as perfect timing. :|

Oh well...

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