Eto na ba yun?

9pm dapat pasok ko. Minsan last shift na pumapasok (11pm) tapos the next day opening shift (7pm) kasi may kelangan i-roll out o kaya magbantay per interval (every 30mins) ng tawag na papasok anggang magsara ng (8am). Bago ko nga isulat ko, natanong ko, "Ano nga ba talaga shift ko?"

Nag-iisa na lang kasi akong coach samen. Dalawa talaga kami pero nakamahabang leave yung isa. May coach in training naman (CTT or Coach Track Trainee tawag samen) pero syempre dahil CTT pa lang nga, hindi mo pwedeng isipin o asahan na kaya niya mag-isa. Hindi dahil wala kang tiwala pero dahil hindi niya pa yun dapat ginagawa.

Sumabay pa one time yung wala yung manager kaya ang datingan, sagot mo lahat: client, company bosses, senior managers, directors, VP. May tanong sila? Sagutin mo. Di mo alam? Di pwedeng replyan mo na hindi mo alam. Maghanap ka ng sagot. Tumawag ka sa ibang manager, humingi ka ng advice, alamin mo diskarte.

Umiyak sa unang araw. Na-pressure. Pagkatapos? Sinabi sa sarili, "Sige. Kaya ko 'to." Pagkatapos ng ilang araw... kaya ko na. May onting humps, may onting gasgas, pero kaya ko. Alam kong kaya ko. Pero yung angkinin na yung posisyon? Mag apply na maging manager in training? (OMTT tawag samen. Operations Manager Track Trainee) Wait lang. Atras ulit.

Dumalaw ako sa training ng mga bagong ahente kanina. Nakita ko mga dati kong ahente. 2 years ago nung mahawakan ko sila bilang ahente ko. Bago pa sila nun dito. Ngayon? Hindi sila bagong ahente or magtetraining. May mga posisyon na sila. Yung isa Quality Analyst (QA). Pinakauna kong napaakyat. Pangalawa, Sales Verifier/QA Apprentice. Naging OCP mentor din or mentor ng mga bago. Taga-assist sa kanila. Pangatlo? Bagong promote: Learning Specialist Track Trainee. May pang-apat pa nga e. Ginogroom ko maging LS nun, tinulak kong mag-apply mag CTT, ayun, may hawak nang team ngayon.

Bat ko sinabi yun? Kasi mayabang ako. Haha. Hindi, masaya kasi ako. Lagi kong sinasabi, ang mga ahente kong napapaangat ko ang pamantayan ko ng galing ko bilang coach. Kung matulungan ko silang umangat, feeling ko, magaling ako talaga. So pano? Ang galing-galing ko noh. Haha. Tingin mo pwede na kaya yun batayan para mag-apply na talaga ko na OMTT? May opening. Pinapapasa ako ng requirements. Kaya ko na ba? Kaya ko na ba talaga? :|

Ang hirap.

Sabe ng Inang Reyna ko, Senior Operations Manager namin, dapat daw every 2 years umaangat ka. Wag mong hayaang stagnant ka. In fairness, 2 years pa lang nung November nung naging official coach ako. Ano ba? Eto na ba yun? Kaya ko na ba?

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What makes you?

What makes you calm?
Him: when I talk to you, your hug
Her: when I voice out what I feel through whatever channel, your presence

What's gross to you?
Him: that picture you've sent

Her: aside from the usual gross stuff, probably third parties

What makes you angry?
Him: your petix
Her: third parties, minamadali ako ng di ko naman kasalanan (more on inis lang. Haha)

What makes you smile?
Him: seeing you smile
Her: your hugs, kisses on my forehead, your naughtiness. Hahaha

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Like a girl.

When you wear your hair long.
Or curl it. Or put on a headband.

When you want you have this cute bag.
Or want a boy to carry it for you.

When you want your bf to go to your office.
Or try to make him wait a lil longer.

When you want to show off your guy.
Or hide him from anyone else to keep him for yourself.

But I'm not a girl.. not anymore.
I'm a woman. And should be acting like one.

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Spoiled.

Gusto kong mag-field trip!
Gusto kong makasama ka.

Gusto kong umangat!
Gusto kong pumirmi.

Gusto kong sumigaw!
Gusto kong makausap ka.

Gusto kong umiyak!
Gusto ko ng yakap mo.

Gusto ko makita yung giraffe!
Gusto kong maalala.

Gusto ko si Croco Martin!
Gusto kong walang isipin.

Gusto ko lumayas!
Gusto kong marinig sarili ko.

Gusto ko tumalon ng mataas!
Gusto kong mahilo.

Gusto ko na matulog!
Gusto kong matahimik na kalooban ko.

Gusto ko na to matapos!
Gusto kong umulit.

Madaming gusto ang tao.
Sa dulo naman..
Ano ba dapat?
Alam yung tama.
Pero masaya ba?

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Lagpas tao

Kasabay ng init ng panahon.
Pressure cooker ba.

When people expect too much from you, something beyond your scope, your position but still that's how they look at you.

Bawing-bawi ang 9 days kong bakasyon! Ilang araw pa lang, sagad sagad na ko. Kakaloka!

When you don't know what to prioritize anymore. Should I start with something easier or something challenging? Should I think about others, start thinking about myself or not think of what others people think but rather perceive?

Alam ko kaya ko 'to pero wait lang. Hinay hinay naman o. Isa isa lang, please.

Should I go on or move on?
Should I let the air carry me away or fight with resistance?

Kaya ko pa ba? Ok pa ba ko?
Unti unti na dumudulas kamay ko sa pagkapit.

When you lose faith with the system.
When you go against what society expects you to do.

Ano ba dapat?
O tama?

Positive vibes, faith in humanity, trust in myself.

San po pwede magpa-load?
Kahit papasa lang.

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There lies the problem.

Ever being blamed about something you don't know what?

Ever knowing the reason and understanding that it's not even your fault?

Then you will just adjust just for the sake of it. Because that person is someone higher, needs more understanding or because you're the one who needs to bend.

As much as you want to talk it out, how can you? You're not even friends to begin with but you need to co-exist. You sure as hell that you'll only make it worse if you talk it out because that person already started talking against you, assummed and painted yourself as the big bad wolf in that pwrson's world.

So the best thing you can really do is to bend.

Let space and time take it's magic to heal or cool things off.

Even if it's hurting you.
Even if it's affecting you.
Even if it's getting in the way with your relationship with others.

Because you need to understand.
Because you need to be the bigger person.
Because you just need to.
Because that person won't.

If only that person knows what I'm going through.
If only that person can see how much this affects us.
If only that person can be stronger than I am coz I want to throw the towel already.


So much for these kind of relationships...



People should talk TO each other and not ABOUT each other.

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Hindi mo kelangang manganak para masabing nanay ka.

Nagpapatay ng oras ng biglang gustong sagutin si Facebook sa tanong niyang:

"What's on my mind?"

Andami ko na naranasan sa pagiging coach ko when it comes to family.

Andun yung tinetext ako ng asawa, jowa o kaya magulang para hanapin saken agent ko o kaya magsabi ng dahilan kung bat di makakapasok.

Maging nanay kahit hindi sila galing sa sinapupunan (deep, men!) ko.

Maging kaibigan na sabihan ng problema.

Maging ate na nagagalit pag me kalokohan sa personal life.

Maging tropa na barubal kausap at mas madalas na bastos.

Mamatayan ng manugang (asawa ng agent ko).

Nagdadasal na hindi maranasan kelanman ang mamatayan ng ahente.

Maging ninang pero di pa nakakaattend sa binyag.

Maimbitahan sa kasal.

Maging bridesmaid sa kasal.

Makatulong mapromote yung mga ahente ko at naging Tier 2 (Escalation Team), QA, OCP Mentor, Sales Verifier, LSTT at CTT. Para na rin akong nakapagpatapos ng estudyante with honors! (Kayo mga medalya ko bukod sa posisyon ko!)

Malungkot dahil mabuntis ang "anak" ng hindi pa kasal.

Masaya na napagsabay ang pag-aaral at trabaho.

Mapatino ang mga pasaway na ahente sa absenteeism.

At ngayon.... magiging Lola naman! :") Bukod sa may 2 kong buntis na "anak", may 2 pang dagdag! Kakalokang tunay!

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